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In our last study, we discovered that it is indeed possible for a Christian to lose salvation. Because of this, many live in fear—remembering what it was like to be close to God, yet knowing they have fallen away.

These are not people who merely thought they were Christians but never truly were. These are people who genuinely were Christians at one time, now having rejected Christ.

But if someone reaches a point where their heart can be softened again—is there still hope for them? These are people who have tasted and seen that the Lord is good, yet chose to walk away. No doubt, many are asking: “Can I come back to God after falling away?”

The answer is yes! There is hope for those who were once in the faith and then left it. Some may say otherwise, pointing to passages such as Hebrews 6 and 10, which we’ll examine in this study. But the truth is this: even those who once belonged to Christ still have a chance to return to Him after falling away.

What Happens When a Christian Falls Away From God

Being born again means that a person’s soul—once dead in sin and far from God—is brought to life. This new life comes from the Holy Spirit, who dwells within us. In that moment, our soul is made alive because the Spirit of God—the very breath of life—abides in us.

Job 33:4

4 The spirit of God hath made me, and the breath of the Almighty hath given me life.

John 11:25

25 Jesus said unto her, I am the resurrection, and the life: he that believeth in me, though he were dead, yet shall he live:

John 14:6

6 Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me.

When you remove yourself from Jesus, you remove yourself from life itself. You step away from the way of salvation. As a result, your soul once again becomes dead in sin. This is a serious condition—but as we will see, it is not irreversible.

Hebrews 13:5

5 Let your conversation be without covetousness; and be content with such things as ye have: for he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee.

Hebrews 13:5 is speaking of someone who has Jesus and is content in Him. It describes a person walking with Him. The verse assures us that Jesus will not leave us behind or abandon us when we are faithfully following Him.

God does not forsake those who follow Him—that is the proper context. But He will not imprison us either. If we choose to forsake Him, He will not force us to remain with Him. He allows us to walk away.

Judges 10:13

13 Yet ye have forsaken me, and served other gods: wherefore I will deliver you no more.

2 Chronicles 15:2

2 And he went out to meet Asa, and said unto him, Hear ye me, Asa, and all Judah and Benjamin; The Lord is with you, while ye be with him; and if ye seek him, he will be found of you; but if ye forsake him, he will forsake you.

God does not change. He makes it clear that His promise to never forsake us applies only to those who do not forsake Him. When we abandon Him and turn to other gods, He will not deliver us. If we forsake Him, He will, in turn, forsake us.

Can a Person Come Back to God After Falling Away

Hebrews 6:4-6

4 For it is impossible for those who were once enlightened, and have tasted of the heavenly gift, and were made partakers of the Holy Ghost, 5 And have tasted the good word of God, and the powers of the world to come, 6 If they shall fall away, to renew them again unto repentance; seeing they crucify to themselves the Son of God afresh, and put him to an open shame.

Hebrews 10:17-18 and 26-31

17 And their sins and iniquities will I remember no more. 18 Now where remission of these is, there is no more offering for sin.

26 For if we sin willfully after that we have received the knowledge of the truth, there remaineth no more sacrifice for sins, 27 But a certain fearful looking for of judgment and fiery indignation, which shall devour the adversaries. 28 He that despised Moses’ law died without mercy under two or three witnesses: 29 Of how much sorer punishment, suppose ye, shall he be thought worthy, who hath trodden under foot the Son of God, and hath counted the blood of the covenant, wherewith he was sanctified, an unholy thing, and hath done despite unto the Spirit of grace? 30 For we know him that hath said, Vengeance belongeth unto me, I will recompense, saith the Lord. And again, The Lord shall judge his people. 31 It is a fearful thing to fall into the hands of the living God.

These are very powerful passages. At first glance, they seem to teach that once a Christian falls away, there is no path back to God. But that is not truly what they are saying.

If that interpretation were correct, it would directly contradict the following words of Jesus:

Revelation 2:4-5

4 Nevertheless I have somewhat against thee, because thou hast left thy first love. 5 Remember therefore from whence thou art fallen, and repent, and do the first works; or else I will come unto thee quickly, and will remove thy candlestick out of his place, except thou repent.

Here, Jesus Himself is speaking to people who had left their first love and fallen from grace. Yet He calls them to repent and return. If returning were impossible, He would not command them to do it.

Some argue that the “first love” in this passage refers to evangelism rather than to Jesus Himself. But that does not hold up, since one must love Jesus first before truly loving evangelism.

This is why the greatest commandment begins with loving God first, and then loving others second. Clearly, Jesus is addressing Christians who have fallen away. And just as clearly, He is asking them to return to Him.

The Prodigal Son

Luke 15:21-24

21 And the son said unto him, Father, I have sinned against heaven, and in thy sight, and am no more worthy to be called thy son. 22 But the father said to his servants, Bring forth the best robe, and put it on him; and put a ring on his hand, and shoes on his feet: 23 And bring hither the fatted calf, and kill it; and let us eat, and be merry: 24 For this my son was dead, and is alive again; he was lost, and is found. And they began to be merry.

Luke 15 tells the story of the prodigal son. Notice that this was not a servant or a stranger—it was the father’s own son.

The son left his father. But when he remembered where he had fallen from, he repented and returned. His father welcomed him back as one who had been dead and was now alive again.

This story does not begin with the son being distant. It actually begins with him in his father’s household if you read the whole story. Jesus was showing that the prodigal son represents someone who was alive and knew their Father in heaven, but chose to leave their Father.

When his hardened heart turned back to his father, he repented and returned. And his father did not reject him. Instead, he embraced him as his son. He declared: “For this my son was dead, and is alive again; he was lost, and is found.”

The prodigal didn’t need to be born again as a brand-new son—that was impossible. He needed to be raised from the dead as a returning son.

In that same chapter, Jesus tells two other parables: one of the shepherd who leaves the ninety-nine sheep to find the one that was lost, and another of the woman who loses a coin and diligently searches until she finds it.

In each of these stories, what was lost had originally belonged to the one who found it again. That is the point—there is hope for the Christian who falls away.

So if Jesus speaks of returning to God after falling away, how could the book of Hebrews be saying a person cannot return? The simple answer is this: it doesn’t actually say that.

Let’s look more closely at Hebrews 6:4–6 and Hebrews 10:17–18, 26–31.

What Does Hebrews 6 Mean

Hebrews 6:4-6

4 For it is impossible for those who were once enlightened, and have tasted of the heavenly gift, and were made partakers of the Holy Ghost, 5 And have tasted the good word of God, and the powers of the world to come, 6 If they shall fall away, to renew them again unto repentance; seeing they crucify to themselves the Son of God afresh, and put him to an open shame.

At first glance, Hebrews 6:6 seems to say that those who have known God and been Christians cannot return to Him if they fall away. But that is not what the passage is teaching. It does not say they cannot come back to Christ—it says they cannot be renewed again unto repentance.

When we read the word renew, we understand it as starting over and being made new. But when we read the word repentance, we often, without realizing it, substitute it in our minds with the word salvation. Repentance is certainly part of coming to salvation, but it is not the same thing as salvation itself.

Verses 4–6 are saying that those who have known God and been Christians cannot be renewed unto repentance. The word renewed means “to begin again, to start over from the beginning.” The word unto expresses movement toward a goal, like saying “unto the end.” It means traveling the distance until you reach a destination.

So the passage literally says it is impossible to start over from the very beginning—that first step toward Jesus. Repentance is where it all began. It was the first step you took toward Christ and salvation.

So it isn’t saying a person cannot be renewed to salvation. It is saying a person cannot go back and start over as if they had never taken that first step at all.

You cannot hear the gospel as though for the very first time again. You cannot come to Jesus as though you had never known Him before. You must pick up where you left off—as a born-again child of God.

Think of the prodigal son. He could not return to his father as if he were merely a servant, because it was impossible for him to be anything less than his father’s son. Even when he was “dead” to his father, he was still his son.

When he returned, he did not become a newly born son. Believing you have to be “born again, again” is like saying you need to be adopted a second time. That would mean Jesus would have to pay the adoption price all over again.

That is why verse 6 says they would “crucify to themselves the Son of God afresh, and put him to an open shame.” You cannot begin again as though you were never God’s child. You do not need to be readopted. God can revive His “dead son,” but no one can pretend they were never His son in the first place. Like the prodigal, you simply need to come home.

Now let’s see the full context of the subject in Hebrews.

Hebrews 5:12-13

12 For when for the time ye ought to be teachers, ye have need that one teach you again which be the first principles of the oracles of God; and are become such as have need of milk, and not of strong meat. 13 For every one that useth milk is unskilful in the word of righteousness: for he is a babe.

This is actually where the topic begins. Paul says these believers should have been teachers by now, but instead they still needed to relearn the basics. They needed to go back to the foundational truths of the faith. He continues this same thought into chapter 6.

Hebrews 6:1-2

1 Therefore leaving the principles of the doctrine of Christ, let us go on unto perfection; not laying again the foundation of repentance from dead works, and of faith toward God, 2 Of the doctrine of baptisms, and of laying on of hands, and of resurrection of the dead, and of eternal judgment.

Paul urges them not to keep laying the foundation over and over again. They don’t need to keep starting from scratch. The foundation has already been laid. They already know about repentance. Jesus has already made them children of God. There is no need to “start over.” He then carries this same thought into the verses that are often misunderstood.

Look at Hebrews 6:4-6 again.

Paul is telling us that it is impossible to start over as if we had never known Christ. We don’t need to meet Jesus for the first time again. We don’t need a brand-new foundation. When we fall away and return, we are not renewed—we are restored.

There is a difference between renewal and restoration. Renewal is about making something entirely new. For example, broken pieces of a glass vase could be melted down and reshaped into a completely new vase. That new vase is not the same one that was broken—it is an entirely different one. That is renewal.

Restoration, on the other hand, repairs what was broken. It puts the original vase back together, heals what was damaged, and makes it whole again.

So Hebrews 6 is saying this: you cannot be made brand new all over again, but you can be restored to the fellowship with God that you once had. Paul continues this thought further in the chapter.

Hebrews 6:10

10 For God is not unrighteous to forget your work and labour of love, which ye have shewed toward his name, in that ye have ministered to the saints, and do minister.

Paul explains that when you are restored, God does not forget the works you did before you fell. Your past relationship with Him is not erased. You were His child before you fell—and you are still His child when you return.

What Does Hebrews 10 Mean

Hebrews 10:17-18

17 And their sins and iniquities will I remember no more. 18 Now where remission of these is, there is no more offering for sin.

God promised to remember our sins no more. This is called the remission of sins. So when the passage says that there is “no more offering for sin,” we should ask: Why would we ever need another offering? All of our sins are forgiven through the sacrifice of Jesus. If our sins are forgiven, there is no need for a new sacrifice to forgive them again.

Notice carefully—these verses do not say that a person cannot be forgiven if they walk away. They simply say that since our sins are already forgiven through Jesus, no other offering is needed.

Hebrews 10:26

26 For if we sin willfully after that we have received the knowledge of the truth, there remaineth no more sacrifice for sins,

Here we see the same truth repeated: there is no more sacrifice for sins, even if we willfully turn away. But what does this mean? Does it mean that the blood of Jesus no longer covers us, and therefore a new sacrifice would be required? Or does it mean that there is no other sacrifice besides Jesus that can ever cover us?

Let’s look at the context to understand it correctly.

Hebrews 10:28-29

28 He that despised Moses’ law died without mercy under two or three witnesses: 29 Of how much sorer punishment, suppose ye, shall he be thought worthy, who hath trodden under foot the Son of God, and hath counted the blood of the covenant, wherewith he was sanctified, an unholy thing, and hath done despite unto the Spirit of grace?

Verse 28 points back to the Law of Moses. Under the law, when a person sinned, they had to bring a sacrifice to be forgiven. How could someone “despise” this law? By sinning but refusing to bring the sacrifice. This was disobedience—but more than that, it revealed unbelief. That person did not believe (or care) that God would forgive them through the sacrifice He had provided.

Now apply that understanding to verse 29. What does it mean to “tread underfoot the Son of God”? It means to treat the once-for-all sacrifice of Jesus as worthless, as if His blood cannot save.

The verse continues: “and hath counted the blood of the covenant, wherewith he was sanctified, an unholy thing.” Again, this means a person considers the blood of Jesus powerless and insufficient to save.

Then it says: “and hath done despite unto the Spirit of grace.” The word despite means “to treat with contempt, to disregard, to disdain.” Once more, this describes treating the grace of God as worthless, as though He had no power to save.

And here is the truth that many have missed: Hebrews 10 is not saying that a fallen Christian cannot return to the faith. It is saying that there is no other way back except through Jesus.

These verses do not say that the blood of Jesus cannot cover the sins of someone who returns after falling away. In fact, they teach the opposite!

They warn that if you consider the blood of Jesus insufficient to forgive your sins—even the sin of falling away—then you are the one rejecting the only way of forgiveness. That is what it means to “do despite unto the Spirit of grace.”

So these are not verses declaring that you can never be saved again. They are verses warning that if you reject God’s way of salvation through Christ, then no forgiveness is possible—because there is no other way!

Look closely: none of these verses say that the blood of Jesus is not enough to cover someone who has left the faith. None say that a person cannot return to Him, like the prodigal son who was alive, then dead, and then alive again.

In fact, they say the opposite. They declare that if you claim the blood of Jesus is not enough to cover all sins—even the willful sin of walking away—then you are the one despising the Spirit of grace.

These verses are not teaching that you cannot be saved. They are teaching that only those who refuse to believe God is both able and willing to save them cannot be saved. To say otherwise—to claim that God cannot, or will not, forgive the repentant soul—is nothing less than blasphemy.

How To Come Back To God After Falling Away

Now that we’ve seen from Scripture that restoration is possible, we need to understand how. Jesus tells us exactly what to do:

Revelation 2:5

5 Remember therefore from whence thou art fallen, and repent, and do the first works; or else I will come unto thee quickly, and will remove thy candlestick out of his place, except thou repent.

Jesus tells us that we must repent and do our first works. This repentance isn’t the same as when someone first comes to Him to be born again. This is the repentance of someone that is already a child of God being restored.

But what were our first works? The way you return to your Father is the same way you came to Him the first time—you came believing He would forgive and accept you. You came in faith.

If you were once a believer and have left, you don’t need to be “born again” as if for the very first time. Jesus’ one sacrifice is enough; you cannot crucify Him again. What you need is restoration, not a brand-new beginning.

Come back by repenting, returning to those first works of faith, and trusting His word. If you repent, there is hope. The Father is ready to welcome His child back home.

Isaiah 40:29-31

29 He giveth power to the faint; and to them that have no might he increaseth strength. 30 Even the youths shall faint and be weary, and the young men shall utterly fall: 31 But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.

There’s something important to note in this passage. It says, “they that wait upon the Lord.” Renewal isn’t always instant—it can take time.

I’m often asked by people returning to the faith whether they will ever feel God like they used to. The answer is yes, but you have to wait for it. This isn’t a punishment; it’s actually how God strengthens you.

Every Christian goes through a time when God seems distant. It’s a difficult, even painful, feeling. But it is during this time that we learn to walk by faith, not by sight.

It’s easy to follow God when you feel His presence. But what happens when you don’t feel it? Do you just sit down? Do you run away? Or do you keep walking in the darkness, knowing He is still there, no matter what it feels like?

It is in these times that we must lay down our insecurities, our dependence on feelings, our own wisdom, and our pride. We learn to let go of anything that doesn’t align with His Word, because His Word is the only sure light we have.

Coming to Him in faith means you aren’t looking for confirmation, a feeling, or a sign to prove it’s real. You need to believe, even if you don’t get any confirmation—because His word is confirmation enough.

Don’t fall into the trap of trusting your feelings. Don’t be afraid. No doubt the prodigal son took some time after returning home before he felt like he belonged again. Do you think he stopped feeling unworthy the moment he walked back in the door? Most likely, he still felt that way for a while. But his feelings didn’t change the facts. And neither will yours. You have to just accept that.

In the next lesson, we will examine what Scripture calls the one unforgivable sin. I’ll explain what it is—and why it isn’t as final as you may think.

Unit 3:14 – What Is the Unforgivable Sin OR

Return To Christianity 101 Unit 3 – Repentance and Salvation

Comments (135)

  1. Kim

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    I feel I have lost my salvation.git into sexual several times.woukd feel convicted but tell holy spirit pretty much in my mind I don’t want to hear u right now..I repented but from videos I watched it was just worldly sorrow..which that leads to death..I keep trying to get back to God,but I feel hard..almost feelike he’s hardened my heart towards him.The Lord even reminded me of Esau when I was sinning..I just feel so lost .no joy..just fear of hell,.could someone call me..(EDITED OUT FOR SAFETY)..would love to hear of a testimony of someone who went through this like me but was able to get back to the Lord..I feel so overwhelmed and tormented at times. Thank u

    • Reply

      Kim, the thing about sin is that it is deceitful. Every choice we make to sin is a choice to harden our heart just a little bit each time. Eventually we get to a place of being so hard that we deny we ever knew God. THAT is when we shrug off our faith and are in danger of Hell. But you are here reaching out. This, believe it or not, is an action caused by the faith you still have. TODAY is still the day of salvation. Just as sin slowly hardens your heart each step towards God can break the hardness down. There is so much more I want to say about this. But understand it takes time to feel things…but only one second to turn back to God and be saved.

  2. cody lacoste

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    Everybody sins it is not good but sometimes you give into Temptation that’s not an excuse to keep doing it but with that being said you won’t lose your salvation with Jesus Christ because of what you have done only if you thin on purpose and go against God on purpose I’m assuming because maybe you were mad at him or something like that but anything you have done repent and ask for forgiveness and stick with God just do not send later down the road you accidentally give in to temptation again that also doesn’t mean that you’re going to go to hell he knows the difference between if you accidentally giving in or just say you’re gonna live this lifestyle and do what I want So just turn to God and stay with him when you feel tempted quote scripture say a prayer

  3. cody lacoste

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    Jesus loves all of us just say no to sin it may be hard but just do it you will feel so much better and it will make Jesus happy At the moment you are tempted you might be about to give in to temptation think about the long run think about what is waiting for you in the end just do not give into temptation heaven will be far more beautiful in every way

  4. cody lacoste

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  5. Hadassah

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    This has helped me a great deal may the lord bless you in a abundance for this !

  6. Christina

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    I thank God, He has forgiven me, i Once was lost, am coming back to Him, there is no where I can go, I choose to proclaim His goodness and nothing but His goodness only.

    I am christine, Ino longer entertain sin, it hurts, it removes peace of mind, I once turned away from him but its not easy living without Him, in fear, wothout peace. I am no longer living in the same sin and i dont like it. I once failed in the sin of abortion after being born again, I repented and I cant think of doing such kind of a thing anymore. i EVEN DONT LIKE MENTIONING IT,, ITS A SIN! I thank God that the blood blood of Jesus is purer that no sin can stand un washed, forward ever, backward never, I wont do it again!

  7. S A M

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    Thank you for this

    I’m kind of in a situation myself but I’ve come to the realization that when you returning back to God not because of who He is but because of what He can do for you or to escape hell or because you don’t have anything to lose, then you’ll only be setting yourself up for disappointment
    I know not a solution to this but for the time I’ve been in communion with God, I’ve learnt that honesty goes a long way

  8. Esther

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    Hi,

    I became a born-again Christian when I was 7 years old. It was so real to me then. I served the Lord for years, witnessed to my friends, cried over the fact that they weren’t saved, and suffered minor persecution for my faith.

    When I was 15, I backslide. It was somewhat gradual, yet sudden. It’s hard to believe that I ever was saved, but I know I was. My family still prays for me all the time, I know I’ve let them down as they’re all born-again Christians, and more importantly I let God down.

    I really don’t want to go to hell, but I seriously can’t seem to repent of my sins, no matter how hard I try. I’ve had episodes of “repentance” where I literally cry out to God in front of people, but I know that I’m not fully turning away from sins in my heart, and I don’t have that full, real desire to serve Jesus. But I’m terrified. I’m 20 now, and I’m just drifting further from God…can you all please pray for me. How do I open my heart and mind to Jesus?

  9. Don

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    Where are the story of those that have fallen and repented and are now living a victorious life in the power of the Holy Spirit, that’s what’s needed!

    • Orion

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      Is that a rhetorical question? Are you saying that there are no examples where a person knew God fell away/backslid for a while then came back?

  10. Carol M Weber

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    Hi, my name is Carol and I am 72 years old. I have known the Lord for 42 years. I gave my heart and life to him when I was 30 years old and I had a wonderful relationship with Him for many years. I heard His Voice, once audibly. He gave me visions and dreams and told me things that He wanted me to do and I did them. I believe that He even gave me the faith to believe Him and to trust Him because some of the things that He wanted me to do took a big leap of faith. The years passed by, my children grew up, my husband died and I remarried a man whom I believed to be saved…he was not. As time passed hard times happened and I spent most of my time trying to figure things out and make my life work. Here I am, 42 years after I met my Best Friend, and I cannot hear Him! I feel absolutely no guidance from Him and I haven’t for around 5 years. I have been crying out to Him every day to hear from Him. Today, I was reading Hebrews 1ii:1, a scripture I knew well for many years, but today I read it and I cried bitterly. It says Faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. As I read this scripture today, I was struck with the thought that the reason that I feel such fear and I am unable to feel the Presence of God anymore is Could I possible have lost faith?? I noticed a while back that I could not find that Blessed Assurance of my salvation and I did not know why and I have prayed and cried for some wisdom but it never came. I am so afraid that I have lost my faith and I do not want to lose it, I want it to grow. The only thing that I can think of that I have done and it is not good, is to live my life depending on my own self and not on the Lord who is the One Who died for me. Since I couldn’t feel him, or hear im for so many years, I just depended on myself and now I am afraid that I may have lost Him. How can I come back….I want Him in my life and I feel like I have to learn all over again….can you help me? Carol

    • Reply

      Hi Carol, you don’t know this now but your faith is actually going through the growing process. These are growing pains you are feeling. Let me explain with my own testimony. When I met God I also felt His presence and heard His still small voice which I can only describe as a power that I could understand in the form of words.

      Fast forward a couple of years and suddenly that presence and the still small voice seemed to be so distant that I feared I had lost the faith and it was so bad that I couldn’t even sleep without the light on because the darkness I felt within was so strong. This went on for 3 years. I called to God, tried to study the Bible, and only felt more and more distant.

      But this dark time was one of my greatest blessings! I didn’t know it at the time but I hadn’t lost my faith. I was learning to WALK BY FAITH and not by sight! We always want to feel God near us. But what happens when He hides His face? What happens when He isn’t confirming to us who we are and if we are His? It’s then that we have to hold onto what God has already said rather than trust how we feel.

      God is training you to trust His word over His presence and over all of your feelings. He is training you to see what you could not see before. He is training you to see the invisible. By that I mean He is teaching you how to trust in His word even when you feel lost.

      At one point I even cried out “Even if you send me to Hell I’m still going to trust you and praise you for being a good God!” That’s the kind of growth I’m talking about. It’s one that can go through the darkest places and yet still be able to hold onto the hope that God will not forget His word that should I call on Him He would remember me and save me. Even if I spent time in Hell I believed His word that He would raise me up because I trust and love Him. That’s the place I believe He is bringing you through.

      • Carol Weber

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        Jason, Please forgive me for not replying to your comment back in July. Believe it or not, I just stumbled upon the On the Line Ministry page due to googling and reading How to come back to God. I totally forgot that I wrote to this ministry back then and I didn’t see your reply until now. Believe me, I really needed to hear what you had to say. I am still going through this darkness and it is November now and I will be 73 years old in 2 more days. I am hanging on to what you said but I am really worried about the fact that I have absolutely no fruit in my life anymore and I know that I just can’t try to manufacture it. I am seeing my attitude towards people is not as nice as I used to be. I used to be sweet, or so I was told but now I am nasty and nobody has to tell me that..I see it. I am still in the same place as before. I pray all the time but, like you said, I do not go into the Word as I should because I do not hear from God and I am noticing that I do not understand the Word as I did before. I would love to go in and hear what He had to say. I understand what you said about Him wanting a believer to just believe regardless of whether you Hear Him or feel Him. I am such an emotional person, very touchy feely and I am sure that He knows that about me. I asked Him, “Why did you make me like this and now expect me to not go by feeling?” I know that that is a definition of faith but it is my “default “and I don’t know how to change it without His help and He is not Helping. I really don’t want to start complaining again and I pray that I will pass whatever test that He is giving me, if that is what is happening to me. I really hope that it is a test because if it is that means that He still loves me and He must know that I will eventually pass the test. I am getting older and I still want to do something for Him before I leave this world. I also would like my Blessed Assurance back like it was back in the 80’s and 90’s and even after my first husband’s death. I felt Him with me so much back then. I am sorry to take up your time but I sense that you are a very nice person and you don’t mind. Who knows, maybe someone will benefit from this…..Thanks again, carolmariev11@gmail.com. Carol

        • Reply

          Hello again Carol, I know you are still longing for that “feeling” but I am glad you are hanging onto faith without the need for it. You mentioned the lack of fruit in your life. You may not see it as such but the fact that you are reaching out is that beginning of fruit. I compare the fruit of the Spirit with that of a tree. No tree starts it’s life with fruit. It starts with it’s branches reaching out for the light. With time it is well enough to SEE the beginning of fruit but it’s real beginning is when it reached for the sun. There are seasons for fruit. We all go through them. Some seem longer and colder than others. But hold onto this as well, the sun still shines. God who calls the end from the beginning can see the fruit in the seed.

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